another 21st

Happy Birthday Nychel Marie Guia!

you are finally 21! even though you've been 21 this whole summer, it's finally official!!
in less than 2 hours, i am going to Dave n' Busters to party the night away...
yes, while i am assigned the designated driver.


so here are my updates, finally
time: 8:52
currently listening to: slow motion, N.E.R.D.

family: i'm not saying it's been the best. it could be better, but it's going alright. my family and i are getting along pretty well. there's the small things like staying out late & not coming home to sleep in my own bed, but i think we're all adjusting to things that are changing.

friends: it feels great to finally be re-connected to the girls. i'm not with them 24/7, but seeing them more often than before has been great! i love them & i don't think i'd be me if it weren't for them. they have always been there with open arms even when i was being gay and trying to "find myself" there are other close friends that i wish i still held close to me, however things happen for a reason, and it's completely out of my control. sometimes friends will come and go, you just gotta keep moving forward.

school: is probably the thing that i'm most worried about. i'm going back for fourth year at cal state long beach and i don't think i'm anywhere near graduating at the end of this year. I know, however, that i need to work my ass off this semester, summer session and everything. focus, focus, focus!!

love: has to be the most private aspect of my life. i don't want to go into full detail, but all i can say is that i've done things to hurt people. i didn't mean to do what i did intentionally, however i can't can't help the way i feel. i know i'm happy, and it feels great to have someone great.

work: it's alright. i mean i go in, i do my thing, i go home & get paid. i can't believe i've been working there since nov 06 though! crazy. this is probably the longest job that i've kept. actually, it is the longest job i've ever kept. it's chill though. it's down the street from my house, i get almost perfect hours, and i get a fed for free during my shifts. nothing can get any better than that.



so that's all that's been going on in my life. nothing big.
sometimes, i try to take pictures of myself, and i just can't bring myself to post them.
not that i want to be super in love with myself, i just don't have any confidence.
okay, i'll try it out.

here is me waiting to go out tonight.
& no, i did not take a million of these pictures to see which one is the best.
that's just too weird for me. i'm not my sister. =)

p.s. carpe noche!